Be careful when you cast out your demons that you don't throw away the best of yourself.
-Friedrich wilhelm nietzsche

And i was wondering why i never felt like an adult

"There’s actually no such thing as an adult. That word is a placeholder. We never grow up. We’re not supposed to. We’re born and that’s it. We get bigger. We live through great storms. We get soaked to the bone. We realize we’re waterproof. We strive for calm. We discover what makes us feel good. We do those things over and over. We learn what doesn’t feel good. We avoid those things at all cost. Sometimes we come together: huge groups in agreement. Sometimes we clap and dance. Sometimes we look like a migration of birds. We need to remind ourselves—each other—that we’re mere breaths. But, and this is important, sometimes we can be magnificent, to one person, even for a short time, like the perfect touch—the first time you see the ocean from the middle. Like every time you see the low, full moon. We keep on eating: chewing, pretending we know what’s going on. The secret is that we don’t. We don’t, and don’t, and don’t. Each day we’re infants: plucking flower petals, full of wonder."
 —micahling.com, from “Bon Iver: Holocene,” published in Hobart

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I guess i m just weak.....
So weak i can t even control myself.....

ONLY TIME

Mονο ο χρονος μπορει να δειξει τελικα...θα ειναι αρκετη η αγαπη μας? 
Εχουμε παλεψει τοσες φορες...εχουμε νικησει τα ανικητα!!
Αυτη τη φορα...??
Θα ειναι αρκετη....??
Το μονο που ξερω ειναι οτι εγω δεν θα σταματησω να προσπαθω!!!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhbh2iQ-T28

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Και έρχεται η μέρα, που καταλαβαίνεις ότι όλοι γύρω σου είναι προβλέψιμοι...... Τόσο που πια δε σε ενδιαφέρει να ασχοληθείς με ΚΑΝΕΝΑΝ..... και θέλεις απλά την ΗΣΥΧΙΑ σου...

Demanding the right numbers Of me, breaking into pieces.. I'm breaking into pieces!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LpL0nfVXCAQ


Living souls around me
They don't see
Just staring, closed faces
Fake a smile

Shaking hands, shake their heads
But they don't speak
Only demanding the right numbers
Of me, breaking into pieces
I'm breaking into pieces

My world is turning too fast
And I can't get off this spin
I'm moving somewhere I don't want
But all I do is fake a smile

It's so cold around me
I hurry to the next stop
I'm waiting, for something 
For someone, to steer me back to my life
Steer me back to my life

My world is turning too fast
And I can't get off this spin
I'm moving somewhere I don't want
But all I do is fake a smile

When will I break
When does the ice break
When will I dare to press rewind and start all over

This world is turning too fast
And I can't get off this spin
I'm moving somewhere I don't want
But all I do is fake a smile

This world is turning too faaast...
I'm moving somewheeere...
And fake a smile

Far from the edge...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QEex5LtuZxs

I can see you walking
I can hear you talking
but in the end alone again

Far from the edge I'm going
Im holding my last breath
So many left turned sad
If you could only see me
I'm dying in your hands
You'll never understand...

Alive or death
can not find me the answer
I beg

I can see you walking
I can hear you talking
but in the end alone again
With my eyes of fire
Burning my desire
but in the end alone again

Far from the edge
Im holding my last breath
I feel so close to dead
If you could only hear me
I'm crying my ears dead
I'm dying...
Feel my head

I can see you walking
I can hear you talking
but in the end alone again
With my eyes of fire
Burning my desire
but in the end alone again

I can see you walking
I can hear you talking
but in the end alone again
With my eyes of fire
Burning my desire
and in the end alone again